What are you waiting for?

"Take a chance, you stupid ho."

I saw a video that was recently posted by The Voice of a guy who has the most amazing voice. He stunned all of the judges; Gwen Stefani being the most impressed.

Then I thought to myself, "What has Gwen Stefani been up to lately?" as well as "She's looking real good in this video." haha. I decided to look her up on YouTube and clicked on her most recent video. I watched it through and loved how she still holds true to her Japanese-pop, flashy style with bright colors, yet still looks badass and can wear all black and stun the audience. After that video was done, I looked to the right sidebar where her other related videos were and saw the "What are you waiting for?" music video. I haven't seen it in a while, so I thought I would click on it and watch it through for old times sake.

I didn't realize until after watching through half of the video that she was an artist like me who was stuck in a rut and trying to be inspired to create new content. Then the main chorus line began to ring through my head, "What you waiting for? Take a chance you stupid ho."

WHAT ARE YOU WAITING FOR, EZEKIEL?

I think once I began to think about this, I realized that I've also been super uninspired lately and haven't really kickstarted my photography career and utilized that damn expensive piece of paper I call a diploma from Art Center College of Design.

I have been so caught up in the day-to-day with my job at the cafe and riding bikes that I haven't been focusing on my own self and where I want to go with my photography career. I've been offered jobs at companies to be a staff photographer, but I've tried that already for a couple of months and realized that I really didn't enjoy myself, even if the pay was decent.

I'm at the point where I've been in search of a second job to pay rent and other bills, but I think I should use this time to buckle down and start my photography career. It's sad and I am quite embarrassed to say that it's taken me a year and a half to figure this out, but I see myself and I see my other friends who are already becoming established in the careers they want to be in and they are living happily without as much of a struggle that I am dealing with now.

Time for a change? You bet. Can I do it? I have NO fucking idea. But what am I waiting for?

As the one of the greatest cartoon show teachers, Ms. Frizzle always said, "Take chances. Make mistakes. GET MESSY!"